I have been praying and wanting to get busy.
Not in a beauty/blogging community aspect but more towards my family business. If you all follow my blog that i did mention that my dad was very ill last year and admit couple of times this year due to not following the strict diet that i actually break down.
I guess my dad saw me getting faint and admit in the hospital made him realize that it was not a joke when a person fell sick and getting another family members worried for the whole day and in the end wasted/unproductive day just passed.
Now is very strict with his diet and only let himself indulge every saturday to eat abit of his favourite food.
While i was hospitalize at the A&E ward. My mind flashes through so many things..
1. What can i do to be better?
2. What things i need to do when i get out of here?
3. Oh should i do this or do that?
Finally SERIOUS question just pop right out!
What would i do when my parents are no longer around?
Would i be able to hold on the reins my parent are entrusting to me?
Do i have the capabilities to be ...
I was lost.. LOST under my parent wings..
I was being bought up in a environment that, Yes, you need to work to get what you want!
But i was also being spoiled because i have my parent back.
Realizing, getting myself alone out there is very very SCARY!
To be honest, I have a very very bad temper when it comes to defending my parents. Because i find it hard to see them getting blame when things is not their fault. And i can be brute honest when i see things are not right. 100% i would not flare up easily because i can swallow the biggest ego i have and just ignore OR, i would just talk crazy nonsense stuff to vent it out. Texting and bombarding it to my friend, thank goodness for FRIENDS!
If you do not know - We own a renovation / building construction business for almost 10 years. I have seen customers with crazy demand and expectation and do not want to pay for the price, or customer that just delay payment and expect us to pay for them first and then installment.
There was this lady who seriously suffering from menopause that she flirts with my workers and there was once another lady who say no to what ever things we do when it was her idea. Er..
So recently i have talk out loud when i should keep this to my head. I felt soooo regret and i felt sooooo much guilt? that i almost want to kill myself!
In the end of the day, the one that comforts me back is my parent. Apparently i have alot more to learn and experience.
I met a guy who is doing this assignment about Humans of Singapore (FB)
He stopped me and asked me some question about what i really need right now as a Singaporean? ( I can't exactly remember what he asked but its somewhere around that line)
I recall thinking very wisely - TIME
Time to be able to meet up with my love one & spend time with them
Time to get things done
Time to learn and experience things
Time to know yourself..
List just goes on..
We talk alot more after that and he took some pictures which - I do not think end up in his Facebook, because i think he was finding someone unique to post it up online.
But to me, it gave me an opportunity to really think hard and fast. I believe the first thoughts that comes into your mind would be the most important things that matter to you the most.
Actually i am doing my best to manage time well. AKA not being lazy. So far so good.
Look at me.. typing so long and wordy post to share with you.. Time wasted? Nah..
Time well spent to sit down and just pen down the thoughts. So when i look back i will be able to go.. Yeap time to get motivated again.
So how well have you spend your day?
Everyday is a wonderful day!!